Waiting...

Yes, I am waiting
In silence throne
To fill the meetings
To strike me down
No more a reason
Than god above
Let your curses run
Yes, I am waiting
For your love
For your love

Radio waves of a dying sun
Radio speaks my soul alone
Forget my names, erase the page
And dinners draw the passengers
Yes, I am waiting
In silence throne
My blood of treason
My tears of home
No more a feeling
Than being cold
Of playing on
Yes, I am waiting
As I walk your street
Yes, I am waiting
As I ride your dreams
Yes, I am waiting
Inside your doubts
Just let me out

#1

Life is ten percent what happens to you and ninety percent how you respond to it.

You...

" Never been here - How about you ? "
You smile at my answer,
You've giving me the chance,
To be held and understood.

There's no use denying,
For many times I've tried,
Love has never felt as good.

Be it downtown or way up in the air,
When your heart's pounding,
You know that I'm aware.

How'd you do it ? How'd you find me ?
How did I find you ?
How can this be true ?
To be held and understood.

Keep it coming - no one's running
The lesson I'm learning
'Cause blessings are deserved
By the trust that always could

You make it easy to watch the world with love,
You make it easy to let the past be done,
You make it easy...

Sem titulo....

Dito por um verdadeiro amigo, "a amizade dá, o amor exige".
É muitas vezes nas "exigências" do amor que esta cabeça se "perde", no turbilhão de sentimentos que provêem das inseguranças. É no meio das adversidades que me fazem sentir menos do que sou e nem sequer duvidar disso.
Será que não terei o "direito" a ser feliz? Mas se o "tenho", pk não me sinto "à altura"?!.... Pk insisto em me inferiorizar...? Pk insisto em não me sentir Homem, e sim "rato".... pk não me valorizo primeiro perante mim, para lhe poder dar akilo k "sou". Em vez disso, sinto k engano. Pk SOU algo a dois, k não consigo ser sozinho... ou melhor, não consigo ser "sem" ela. Não "quero" ser, sem ela...
Se calhar não devia estar a "pensar" isto assim. Se calhar é isso o amor. Por ser mais que a soma das partes...(como no livro)
...mas "esta parte" engrandece TANTO com a "outra"....
Cada momento "juntos" se torna cada vez mais e mais especial.... mais e mais forte.... mais e mais intenso...como se o fim se aproximasse e nós tentássemos "aproveitar tudo o k ainda temos", e no entanto, temos ainda TUDO à frente...por desflorar, para aprender, para viver e experienciar...a dois....
Porquê então este "medo"...? Pk tenho medo de perder....tudo. Pk, mesmo não tendo "certezas", sinto. Sinto que é ela. Muito...
Beijinhos para ti.
Desculpa as minhas imperfeições como homem, como "ser"...
Amo-te. E isso "exige-me" que queira ser feliz, por nós dois.

hugo

Fim

Como n consigo desligar este blog, ficam os "interessados" avisados de k isto passou à história.
Acabou.
Hugo

Us apart

It starts in my belly
Then up to my heart
Into my mouth I can’t keep it shut
Do you recognize the smell
Is that how you tell
Us apart
I fool myself
To sleep and dream
Nobody’s there
No-one but me
So cold
You’re hardly there...

Utopia

It’s a strange day
No colours or shapes
No sound in my head
I forget who I am

There’s no reason
There’s no sense
I’m not supposed to feel
I forget who I am
I forget

Utopia,

My dog needs new ears
Make his eyes see forever
Make him live like me
Again and again
I’m wired to the world...

Fico assim sem voce....

Avião sem asa, fogueira sem brasa
Sou eu assim sem você
Futebol sem bola. Piu-Piu sem Frajola
Sou eu assim sem você

Por que é que tem que ser assim?
Se o meu desejo não tem fim
Eu te quero a todo instante
Nem mil alto-falantes
Vão poder falar por mim

Amor sem beijinho,
Buchecha sem Claudinho
Sou eu assim sem você
Circo sem palhaço, namoro sem amasso
Sou eu assim sem você
To louco pra te ver chegar
To louco pra te ter nas mãos
Deitar no teu abraço, retomar o pedaço
Que falta no meu coração

Eu não existo longe de você
E a solidão é o meu pior castigo
Eu conto as horas pra poder te ver
Mas o relógio tá de mal comigo Porque? Pooooooorque?

Neném sem chupeta, Romeu sem Julieta
Sou eu assim sem você
Carro sem estrada, queijo sem goiabada
Sou eu assim sem você

Por que é que tem que ser assim?
Se o meu desejo não tem fim
Eu te quero a todo instante
Nem mil alto-falantes
Vão poder falar por mim

Eu não existo longe de você
E a solidão é o meu pior castigo
Eu conto as horas pra poder te ver
Mas o relógio tá de mal comigo

(Por que é que tem que ser assim?....
Porquê?........)

Picture of my life...

I never had a dream that I could follow through
Only tears left to stain, dry my eyes once again
I don't know who I am, or what I'm gonna do
Been so long I've been hopelessly confused
This can never really end, it's infinitely sad
Can someone tell me when
Something good became so bad
So if you have a cure
To me would you please send
A picture of my life
With a letter telling how
it should really be instead

The precipice is there
But will I ever dare
Throw myself in the sky, so at last I can die
See I've become a man
Who holds nothing too dear
Who will mind if I just disappear
This can never really end, it's infinitely sad
Can someone tell me when
Something good became so bad
So if you have a cure
To me would you please send
A picture of my life
With a letter telling how
it should really be instead

Oh, tell me how it really should be

Where do we go from here?...

That's the way love goes
Will it change you inside out
And then it flows
To the places unfamiliar...

I want to get it on with you
I'm sending you a message
I hope you got the sense to read between the lines
You know that on the back it says that
For me you never seem to find the time
Come on I've waited for your phonecalls
But you must be uptown having fun
When you do that thing you do
I get so exited too
But you never think to ask me if I want to
Come with you
So honey where do we go from here???

You know baby
I've been trying to find out but I'm still
Some way from knowing
Come on, you know I am
It's not exactly clear, no no
The love you should be giving me
Is the love you're rarely showing
That's the way love goes

That's the way it goes for me and you
Come on let me tell you now

I feel you're pushing me out
Soon I'm gonna lose my patience girl
Can't understand what you're about
Cause there's no communication
You say you love to love me, love to love me
But you always keep your distance
So honey strike me off your list
If your love comes with a twist
Cause I want the part that lingered on my lips when we first kissed

Say do you love me???
If you do tell me something
And make it true...
Do you love me
I need to know!
Baby can't you tell me where we're gonna go???
Where do we go from here
I've been trying to find out but I'm still some way from knowing

I think I'd sooner make this love dead!
Than waste all my time on you,
I'm wasting all my time...
I'm gonna learn learn learn...
That's the way love goes...
That's the way
It's gonna hurt me so bad
But I won't let it show
I get the feeling that it's gonna
Tear out my mind till I can no longer breath

I know I'm gonna learn learn learn...
That's the way love goes...

Where do we go from here?
I've been trying to find out but I'm still some way from knowing
It's not exactly clear
The love you should be giving me
Is the love you're rarely showing
Hey but that's the way love goes now
You know that's the way love goes

All at sea

I’m all at sea
Where no one can bother me
Forgot my roots
If only for a day
Just me and my thoughts
Sailing far away

Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea

I’m all at sea
Where no-one can bother me
I sleep by myself
I drink on my own
I don’t speak to nobody
I gave away my phone

Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea

Now I need you more than ever
I need you more than ever now

If you don’t need it every day
But sometimes don’t you just crave
To disappear within your mind
You never know what you might find
So come and spend some time with me
And we will spend it all at sea

Like a warm drink it seeps into my soul
Please just leave me right here on my own
Later on you could spend some time with me
If you want to, all at sea

Never lose my faith

You could say I lost my faith in science and progress
You could say I lost my belief in the holy church
You could say I lost my sense of direction
You could say all of this and worse, but
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do

Some would say I was a lost man in a lost world
You could say I lost my faith in the people on T.V.
You could say I'd lost my belief in our politicians
They all seemed like game show hosts to me
If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do
I could be lost inside their lies without a trace
But every time I close my eyes, I see your face

I never saw no miracle of science
That didn't go from a blessing to a curse
I never saw no military solution
That didn't always end up as something worse,
But let me say this first

If I ever lose my faith in you
There'd be nothing left for me to do
If I ever lose my faith in you...

in the wee small hours of the morning...

In the wee small hours of the morning
while the whole wide world is fast alseep
I lie awake thinking of the girl
never even think of counting sheep

while the whole wide world has learned it's lesson
she'd be mine if only she would call
In the wee small hours of the morning
is the time i miss her most of all...

...for now...

Sure I know you’d like to have me
Talk about my future
And a million words or so to fill you in about my past
Have I sisters or a brother
When’s my birthday how’s my mother
Well my dear in time I’ll answer all those things you ask

But for now I’ll just say I love you
Nothing more seems important somehow
And tomorrow can wait come whatever
Let me love you forever but right now

Some fine day when we go walking
We’ll take time for idle talking
Sharing every feeling as we watch each other smile
I’ll hold your hand you’ll hold my hand
We’ll say things we never had planned
Then we’ll get to know each other in a little while

But for now let me say I love you
Later on there’ll be time for so much more
But for now meaning now and forever
Let me kiss you my darling then once more

But for now let me say I love you
Later on I must know much more of you
But for now here and now how I love you
As you are in my arms I love you
I love you

Better together

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
like a, shoebox of photographs
with sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
at least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? and where do we go?
And how come its so hard?
It's not always easy and
sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing its always better when we're together

Bonfire...

Have you ever wondered why those days exist
When life just seems to be the conspiracy against you
I don't know where the answers lie
But I try not to get hung up on the questions

I burn like a good bonfire
In whatever I do
I burn like a good bonfire
And I know I'll come through

The time is long overdue for us
As cleaving all of our souls
We all get so complicated in our lives
When walking just walk, when sitting just sit when being just be
Above all don't stray from your chosen path

Burn like a good bonfire
In whatever you do
Burn like a good bonfire
And I know you'll come through

Burn like a good bonfire
In whatever you do
Burn like a good bonfire
And may peace come to you

The time is long overdue for us cleaving all of our souls
We all get so complicated in our lives

Burn like a good bonfire
In whatever you do
Just burn like a good bonfire
And I know you'll come through

Burn like a good bonfire
In whatever you do
Burn like a good bonfire
And may strength flow through you

Feela

You saw me crying but you didn't want to look
You heard me hurting but you didn't want to listen

This could have been something
This could have been really something
Tell me something more
Tell me something more worth living for

You felt me wanting but you didn't want to give
You sensed me sinking but you really couldn't save me

This could have been something
This could have been really something
Tell me something more
Tell me something more worth living for

People come and go it's just the way of the world
Love just ebbs and flows what's left for us to rely on

This could have been something
This could have been really something
Tell me something more
Tell me something more worth living for

Zero

There's no one here today
'Cause someone took the light away
There's nothing in my heart
Don't think I could even start to explain
I can't stand the pain of losing something so much a part of me
Though in reality you were hardly there...
You were everything, everything

In these few hours a breath of summertime has turned to winter rain
In such little time all my hope has gone
Will it ever be the same
All I ever wanted was to see your face
To see a little smile from my little one
and let You know
You were everything, everything

I did all I could just
To give you life
I'd have done anything
Just to give you life

Out there in the dark your little spirit is lost without a home
Oh don't be afraid I'm thinking of you, no you'll never be alone
Someday, somehow, when the time is right
May an angel smile upon me and give you life

To give you life
I'd give everything, everything

I'll give everything
...

Last goodbye...?

Is this our last goodbye, (?)
I hate to feel the love between us die
But it's over
Just hear this and then I'll go :
you gave me more to live for,
more than you'll ever know.

This is our last embrace,
must I dream and always see your face
Why can't we overcome this wall...?

Kiss me, please,
Kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, baby, and not consolation
You know,
it makes me so angry 'cause I know that in time
this will only make you cry, is this our last goodbye...(?)

Did you say "no, this can't happen to me,"
and did you rush to the phone to call?...

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
Burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes and the memory
Of her sighs that, "it's over... it's over..."
...

Triste conclusao.....

My love means nothing to you....

Seja como for...

Faça o que quiser
viva o que vier
seja onde estiver
faça o que puder
viva como der
sinta o que vier
seja o que quiser
faça o que fizer
pegue o que puder
viva onde estiver
seja como for,
o amor...

What a difference a day made...

What a difference a day made, twenty four little hours
Brought the sun and the flowers where there used to be rain
My yesterday was blue dear
Today I'm a part of you dear
My lonely nights are through dear
Since you said you were mine
Oh, what a difference a day made
There's a rainbow before me
Skies above can't be stormy since that moment of bliss
That thrilling kiss
It's heaven when you find romance on your menu
What a difference a day made
And the difference is you...

You & Me Song

Always when we fight
I try to make you love
'Til everything's forgotten
I know you hate that ...

Always when we fight
I kiss you once or twice
And everything's forgotten
I know you hate that

I love your Sunday song
The week's not yet begun
And everything is quiet
And it's always

You and me
Always and forever
You and me
Always and forever
It was always
You and me
Always

You tell me I'm a real man
I try to look impressed
Not very convincing
But you know I love it

I know we watch TV
'Til we fall asleep
Not very exciting
But it's you and me

And we'll always
Be together
You and me
Always and forever

It was always
You and me
Always and forever
You and me
Always and forever
...


(hoje, foi lindo...!)
#:'*

"Post scriptum"

Gostava de poder ter a chance de fazer por ser feliz. A dois...

"The end"

Esta é provavelmente a última coisa que aqui deixo.
Ao longo destes meses este blog serviu de amigo, de ombro, de travesseiro, de diário. Tenho pena que as coisas na realidade não sejam diferentes e que as histórias terminem não como desejaríamos, mas sim como tem que ser.
Mas também, nunca esta história teve realidade, sempre foi uma "vida paralela", secreta, cheia de ficção, sonhos, planos, mas sem realidade. Demasiado bom, para ser realidade....
No entanto, apesar de tudo, esta história tem uma metade feliz....há um "...e viveram felizes para sempre..."
Mas sobrei eu....a outra metade..... Sem "plurais", sem "feliz", sem...nada... por isso, n sei se voltarei a escrever aqui.... embora o sentimento não acabe, perdeu o sentido falar e exprimi-lo aqui. Vou ter que guardar......que conter... que reprimir............

Fui....

hugo.
#:'(

Palavras...

Eu sei que eu tenho um jeito
Meio estúpido de ser
E de dizer coisas que podem
Magoar e te ofender
Mas cada um tem o seu jeito
Todo próprio de amar
E de se defender...
Você me acusa e só me preocupa
Agrava mais e mais a minha culpa
E eu faço e desfaço, contrafeito
O meu defeito é te amar demais.
Palavras são palavras
E a gente nem percebe
O que disse sem querer
E o que deixou pra depois...
Mas o importante é perceber
Que a nossa vida em comum
Depende só e unicamente de nós dois
Eu tento achar um jeito pra explicar
Você bem podia me aceitar
Eu sei que eu tenho um jeito meio estúpido de ser
Mas é assim que eu sei te amar.

"....és e sempre foste o meu sonho."

Detalhes...

Não adianta nem tentar me esquecer
durante muito tempo em sua vida eu vou viver

Detalhes tão pequenos de nós dois
são coisas muito grandes pra esquecer
e a toda hora vão estar presentes
você vai ver

Se um outro cabeludo aparecer na sua rua
e isso lhe trouxer saudades minhas, a culpa é sua
o ronco barulhento do meu carro
a velha calça desbotada ou coisa assim
imediatamente você vai lembrar de mim

Eu sei que um outro deve estar falando ao seu ouvido
palavras de amor como eu falei, mas, eu duvido
duvido que ele tenha tanto amor
e até os erros do meu português ruim
e nessa hora você vai lembrar de mim

A noite envolvida no silêncio do seu quarto
antes de dormir você procura o meu retrato
mas na moldura não sou eu quem lhe sorri
mas você vê o meu sorriso mesmo assim
e tudo isso vai fazer você lembrar de mim

Se alguém tocar seu corpo como eu, não diga nada
não vá dizer meu nome sem querer à pessoa errada
pensando ter amor nesse momento, desesperada, você tenta até o fim
e até nesse momento você vai lembrar de mim

Eu sei que esses detalhes vão sumir na longa estrada
do tempo que transforma todo amor em quase nada
mas quase também é mais um detalhe
um grande amor não vai morrer assim
por isso, de vez em quando você vai
vai lembrar de mim

Não adianta nem tentar me esquecer
durante muito e muito tempo em sua vida eu vou viver

Voce nao sabe

Você não sabe quanta coisa eu faria
Além do que já fiz
Você não sabe até onde eu chegaria
Pra te fazer feliz

Eu chegaria
Onde só chegam os pensamentos
Encontraria uma palavra que não existe
Pra te dizer nesse meu verso quase triste
Como é grande o meu amor

Você não sabe que os anseios do seu coração
São muito mais pra mim
Do que as razões que eu tenha
Pra dizer que não
E eu sempre digo sim
E ainda que a realidade me limite
A fantasia dos meus sonhos me permite
Que eu faça mais do que as loucuras
Que já fiz pra te fazer feliz

Você só sabe
Que eu te amo tanto
Mas na verdade
Meu amor não sabe o quanto
E se soubesse iria compreender
Razões que só quem ama assim pode entender

Você não sabe quanta coisa eu faria
Por um sorriso seu
Você não sabe
Até onde chegaria
Amor igual ao meu

Mas se preciso for
Eu faço muito mais
Mesmo que eu sofra
Ainda assim eu sou capaz
De muito mais
Do que as loucuras que já fiz
Pra te fazer feliz

Gold to me...

You look like gold to me
and I'm not too blind to see
you look like gold

you make me wanna sing
with all the joy you bring
you look like gold

like the rays down from the sun
when a new day has just begun
you look like gold

I've been fooled before
but now I know
I've made the mistake in the past
but now I know the difference
from gold and brass

not the kind of gold you wear
but the kind that can feel my care
you look like gold

some shine when the day is new
but fade when the day is through
but you look like gold

I've been wrong before
but now I know
I've made mistakes in the past
but now I know the difference
from gold and brass

you look like gold to me
and I'm down on bending knees
you look like gold
and I just want you to know
to me you mean so much more
than all the gold
you look like before....

Suzie Blue...

Won't you sing me the blues,
Sing me something my heart can use; misery loves a symphony...

Does your face, your pretty face get lost in a crowd?
And you say no one's there
To hear you cry out loud
What will you do, Suzie Blue?

Where did you learn to do that so well?...
I guess that would be like kiss and tell
If it's a secret, why did you show me?...

But your far away from the love you used to hold, don't sit and watch your self
grow old
The day is new, Suzie Blue

Real life has let you down
Someone stripped the jewel from your crown
Everybody owes somebody something
Kissing from heaven in your arms
And we'll make love to the memories
They will always see us through, Suzie Blue
The day is new, Suzie Blue ...

Tomorrow is a long time...

If today was not an endless highway
If tonight was not a crooked trail
If tomorrow wasn't such a long time
Then lonesome would mean nothing to me at all

I can't see my reflection in the water
I can't speak the sounds that know no pain
I can't hear the echo of my footsteps
Or can't remember the sound of my own name

Yes, and only if my own true love was waitin'
Yes, and if I could hear her heart a-softly poundin'
If only she was lyin' by me
Could I rest in my bed once again

There's beauty in the silver singin' river
There's beauty in the sunrise in the sky
But none of these and nothing else can match the beauty
That I remember in my own true lover's eyes
...

Under Your Charms

Only half of the time do you tell me just what you want
Can I get some contact?
Can I get some contact from you?
Can I get some contact with what is real?

It's the end of the night and i'm feelin' sexual
Can I get some love back?
Can I get some love back from you?
Can I get some love back that you conceal?

And now I've fallen under your charm
And now I fall into your arms
It's where I feel alright

In the blink of an eye do we do what's natural
Maybe once or twice do we do what's natural
Is it just a love task?
Is it too much to ask from you?
Is it just a love task or do you feel?

And I've fallen under your charm
And now I fall into your arms

And now I've fallen under your charm
And now I fall into your arms
Where I feel alright
It's where I'll stay tonight

Only half of the time do you tell me just what you want
Can I get some contact?
Can I get some contact from you?
Can I get some contact with what is real?
...

I realy have no idea

I have no idea, no idea
How you feel, how you feel
But how good just to see you
How good just to feel you

But I have no idea what to do
No idea, only you....

Gone, gone, gone....

Gone, gone, gone like a wave
Like the time that you gave
Like a bird on the wing
On the first day of spring

So just keep moving on
Cause everything is gone, gone, gone

Like today and tonight
Like the sun out of sight

So just keep moving on
Cause everything is gone, gone, gone
So just keep moving on
Cause everything is gone, gone, gone...

(is it?...) #:'(

Forever nowhere

One question I'd ask
Since nothing's gone as planned
Why do I keep running as fast as I can
Down roads that lead to nowhere
I will never understand

I took your warm hand
And led you past fountains
Where men played in string bands
Down from the mountains
We rolled along to nowhere
I will never understand
I will never understand

You long ahain for foreign lands
The lion's den and burning sand

One thing I ask
If I may ask something
Give love to somebody
While I keep blowing
Like wind forever nowhere
I will never understand
I will never understand

Always seem to get things wrong

Always seem to get things wrong
I waited here a bit too long
For you to come along to me

I thought that I would kiss your lips
But the sky went dark and the moon eclipsed
And what I missed is all that I can see

Now I'm stuck here thinking back
At where I lost the thread
So ashamed here thinking back
At how I lost my head

Way back when the world was young
Long before this song was sung
I know someone must have hurt like me

cotton wool

Here's my love
Step inside
Let me warm you up
By the fire in my heart

Step inside
Close the door
On the wind of fear
Brewing up behind you

You could stay here
Make your home here
Hideaway here

I could wrap you up in cotton wool
Here's somewhere you could let your love
Run free come and give your soul a resting place
Finding someome is like finding yourself a home
If the key fits - just open the door

'Cause you're never gonna spend a lonely day here
Come and watch your fear fly away
And you'll never hunger for a greener side than here
Gonna wrap you up in cotton wool and save you

Where's your love
Let me in
To find the warm fire
That I know is there inside you
Let me in - it's cold outside
And I'll grow there
Find that place deep down inside you

You could hold me
And protect me from all harm
You could love me
You could wrap me up

And I could stay there
Make my home there
Hideaway there
You could wrap me up
In cotton wool